Things are looking UP!!

I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday and every time I go in they ask about my LG levels, basically they want to know if I am ovulating or not. I bought these test that are like pregnancy test. Well I did it yesterday morning and it had 2 lines which means I am ovulating! I wasn’t to sure of it, so when I got to the doctor I asked her everything! I asked if my meds could affect it, if it lies sometimes, etc….she said if there were 2 lines then there were 2 lines. She said that if one was darker than the other, which it was, then I probably haven’t ovulated yet, but would within the next couple of days. She said to keep checking over the weekend and when I get 2 solid, same color lines, then I am ovulating! And we all know what that means! So the doctor checked on my follicles. I have like 5 cysts on one of my ovaries and I have an “OK” size follicle on the other ovary. The doctor said that it could be a little bigger, but it will do! She said it was GREAT NEWS that I started my cycle on my own (no meds) & now my body is trying to ovulate on its own (no meds)! Can you believe that, GREAT NEWS!! I have to go back on Monday to see if I have ovulated or not!!!

I went into that doctor’s appointment so upset about everything. I had a mind set of “This isn’t going to work”. It is tough going through this! But, I can honestly say that I left in a GREAT mood! I think it just might work now! Things are starting to fall into place, literally, and this is a good thing. I have faith in God that I will get pregnant, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but soon!

I tested my LG levels this morning……………I got 2 solid, same color lines!! I am ovulating! This just might be BABY WEEKEND! Of course, since I have a wedding tonight at the church, a wedding tomorrow at the church, Eli’s brother & his wife and child are moving out of our house tomorrow, AND my mom is moving into an apartment tomorrow! BUSY weekend, gotta find the time though!!! If I wasn’t busy then I would be bored, and who wants to bored?? Oh wait…..I do, just for 1 day! J

Thanks for all of the prayers and encouraging words! I have the best group of people in my life right now! I love each and every one of you in some special way! Thanks for being a part of my life! I AM BLESSED!

I am NOT pregnant!

I took a pregnancy test Saturday morning and there was only one line which means NO BABY! I thought, well ok, maybe it is too early to tell. I could still be pregnant and the test might not be able to pick it up that soon, right? Well I started me cycle on Sunday!! I know, I could still be pregnant….but I don’t think I am. I don’t “feel” it! Everyone says that you will just “feel” that you are pregnant.

I was bummed out on Saturday, but after a manicure & pedicure (that my wonderful husband insisted on) and talk with my hubby, I am ok. Eli has been so great through out this process. He is the STRONG one! I look at the glass half empty and he always looks at it half full. I think that is why we are good together. He just told me that we have to be patient and that me starting my cycle on my own (without any meds to make me start) is a GOOD THING! At least my body is “TRYING” to work the right way on its own! That is a good thing.

I called my doctor this morning and asked her what the next step was. She said that she would like to do another month just like last month, because most of the time it doesn’t work on the first month. She said most women get pregnant on the second or third try. She is going to keep my meds the same (sorry to those of you that have to deal with me every day)! I have a doctor’s appointment on June 18th to check everything out again. The doctor said that hopefully I won’t have to have another shot; she thinks I will ovulate on my own, since I started my cycle on my own! Only time will tell.

I just want to tell everyone THANK YOU! Thank you for the support and kind words. Thanks for the encouraging stories. Thanks for the prayers. Thanks to my close friends and my family for being there for me when I need someone to talk to about this stuff! I am sure you are all tired of hearing or reading it! Well, if you are tired of reading it, it is your own fault; you can stop at any time. Most importantly, Thank You to my wonderful husband who has been a great positive person throughout this whole thing! You are the best!!! I love you all dearly and I am glad you are all in my life. Each of you has a special place in my heart!

(Oh yeah, did I mention that I got ZEBRA TOES??? I am so excited!)

The pictures is kinda blurry....sorry.

These meds are killing me!

I have one more week before I can take a pregnancy test! The doctor said that I can take one on Monday! “Do I think I am pregnant?” you ask. Well I try not to think about it, but I kept thinking that just maybe I am! I am light headed, dizzy, sore in certain places, sick to my stomach, really weak and oh yeah….so darn tired, it is hard to stay awake when I am at work sitting at my desk! I have NEVER been this tired. This morning when I got to work, my boss and great friend, that’s cares deeply for me, told me I should look up the side affects to this prescription that I am on. I am taking prometrium, which is supposed to help me not to miscarry if I am pregnant. Since, I do have a high chance of miscarrying. Well, everything that is wrong with me is a side effect of this medicine! So, now I don’t think I am pregnant, I think it is just the medicine. Don’t get me wrong, I am still praying that if this is what God wants, then I DO WANT TO BE PREGNANT. But it is all in hands. I just keep telling myself I’m not, because I don’t want to get all excited and make myself think I am pregnant and then find out different. Please, just keep Eli & I in your prayers. God knows what he has planned and I have total faith in Him! He is an awesome God!

P.S. Just a little advise to everyone (especially to my ex-friend of 12 years if she is still reading these)……DON’T EVER “pray” for someone to have hardships all through life (which is NOT what a true Christian would do) if you are not prepared for what God might have in store for you!! God is not an evil “person” but I do believe you reap what you sew!!! If you “pray” for bad things to happen to people, then bad things will happen to you.